Welcoming and understanding confusion!
In my empathic approach to emotions, I’ve separated emotions into seventeen categories that are based on the unique actions each emotion requires. When I created these categories, I wasn’t trying to erase emotional nuance; I did it so that you could get a handle on your emotions and develop a working emotional vocabulary.
I identified two states that I call masking states: apathy masks the boundary-setting emotion of anger (and thank goodness it does sometimes!), and confusion masks the instinctual, action-oriented emotion of fear (when you need a break from input, or when there’s too much input to process). Both of these masking states are necessary and worthwhile, but because they are masks, it’s important to understand what they’re masking and why.
CONFUSION: The Mask for Fear
ACTION REQUIRED: Confusion is a mask for fear and anxiety, and it arises when you’re overwhelmed by change, novelty, or too many tasks and options. Confusion can be a lovely vacation from overwhelm.
GIFTS: Diffused awareness ~ Innocence ~ Malleability ~ Taking a time-out
THE INTERNAL QUESTIONS: What is my intention? What action should be taken?
The message in confusion from The Language of Emotions
The masking state of confusion arises when you can’t or won’t access your fears, or when you’ve lost your instincts. Confusion actually tries to protect you by halting your actions, but it can easily spiral into a persistent and unresolving state. It’s fine to be confused, but it’s important to know why confusion appears. If you can unmask your confusion, you can revive your instincts and intuition and discover why you’re unable to take decisive action.
When you’re confused, you’ll find yourself dithering, changing your mind constantly, and being nearly unable to focus or ground yourself. Confusion is essentially a form of dissociation that takes you out of commission when you’ve lost your way.
In a confusion, you can’t make decisions, because they might not be the right decisions; you can’t move ahead, because you might move in the wrong way; you can’t think clearly, because you can’t translate, store, or retrieve information properly; and you’re often disconnected from the lessons of the past, so you tend to make the same mistakes over and over again.
When you’re confused, your mind has trouble focusing, your emotions swirl around in unhelpful ways, you lose touch with your instincts, and your attention flies off to a more peaceful perch somewhere above the commotion. If you fight your confusion and force yourself to make a decision, you’ll almost certainly fall right back into the confusion again (or you’ll relentlessly second-guess yourself).
The practice for confusion is not to erase it or blast your way through it, but to take the time to discover why you’ve become so unsettled; confusion stops you for a reason.
Intention ends all ambiguity
My husband Tino, who’s a lucid dreamer, found the perfect cure for confusion in a dream, where he heard this saying: “Intention ends all ambiguity.” Since then, if either of us drops into confusion about some decision, project, or relationship, we ask each other “What’s your intention?”
This question immediately cuts through our fogginess and illuminates the struggles and difficulties we face. Our confusion lifts, our real feelings come forward, our focus and grounding come back, and we become able to think coherently again. From this place, we can thank our confusion for stopping us, because we always find something seriously disordered in our instincts, our behavior, or our intentions.
Knowing our intentions does end our ambiguity, and the saying is just as true if you say it backward: Ambiguity ends all intention. Many thanks to Tino and the dream realm; that’s a definite keeper!
The practice for confusion
The practice for confusion is very simple in theory, but it’s sometimes difficult in reality. You simply ask yourself what your intention is – not which direction you should go, what choice you should make, or what thing you should do, but what your intention is.
Confusion stops you when you’re not following your instincts or listening empathically to your fear. Gently questioning your intentions will almost always help you pinpoint why your intuition and your instincts have departed.
In most cases, confusion arises to trip you up when your behavior or your motivations aren’t compatible with who, what, or where you really want to be. Pushing forward from a confused state will almost certainly take you far off your path; therefore, your confusion is like an important emotional barricade. If you thoughtlessly push ahead, you’ll almost certainly make a mistake, but if you can stop yourself and question your motivations and your intentions, you’ll be able to reassess your true needs. When you can do this, you’ll immediately realize (sometimes with a start, sometimes with a thud) why you’ve been unable to think or act. When you know your intentions, you’ll know exactly why you’ve been so confused.
Here’s an example of this practice: Let’s say you’re trying to decide between two jobs, but you absolutely can’t. If you push forward and force yourself to decide, you’ll probably become more and more conflicted until you drop into a serious confusion. Then, you’ll almost certainly make a decision you’ll never feel comfortable about (but at least you decided – right?).
However, if you can stop yourself and question your intentions, you may find that both jobs have serious and even insurmountable problems – and that the best decision might be to walk away from both of them. This can be a distressing discovery, especially if you’ve got to get a job right now because the rent is due. However, if you’re dedicated to living a full and authentic life, you’ll much prefer scrambling for the rent this month and refocusing your job search over ignoring your intuition and possible selling your soul or losing your vision. We all know people who took an ill-advised job just to pay the rent, and are still working there – miserable and stuck – fourteen years later.
Your confusion stops you for a reason!
It’s elemental, my dear
Sometimes, questioning your intentions doesn’t get you to the crux of your confusion. In these cases, I’ve found that an elemental approach can be useful, because it can help you identify different aspects of yourself and discover if you’ve got an internal conflict that’s contributing to your confusion.
In this elemental approach, the fire element is your visionary (or spiritual) capacity, the air element is your intellect, the water element is your emotions, and the earth element is your physical body. I’ll use a personal example to illustrate this approach:
I was once offered a teaching gig on a cruise ship, which is not the way I want to work with people. However, I was absolutely doubled over with confusion about the job. I questioned my intentions and tried to get focused, but the confusion raged onward and I didn’t know what to do.
Finally, I woke up enough to organize my thoughts, and I asked each of my elements if they wanted to take the job. My fiery vision told me that this was not the image I held for my teaching career, so, no, it didn’t want the job. My airy intellect questioned the logic of doing something so clearly against my long-term vision and my better judgment, so it didn’t want the job either. My watery emotions were very clear – this job held no interest for them whatsoever. But my earthy body wanted to go on the cruise with a yearning that was flagrant! This was why I had dropped into such confusion; I had a profound conflict inside myself.
My work then was to understand why I had a bodily lust for the cruise when no other part of me was interested at all (I desperately needed a vacation at the time), and to find better ways meet my needs. I said no to the cruise and took some time off, took hot baths, went to the river, and scheduled some massages, which made me very happy.
Please note that I didn’t punish or ignore my bodily needs – nor did I allow any other part of myself to do so. My bodily needs were absolutely valid, but there were far better ways to meet my needs than teaching on that cruise.
When you’re confused, it’s very important to understand that something aware inside you (sometimes very deep inside you) is actually working on your behalf. If you can stop yourself and reassess your position when your confusion arises, you’ll be able to connect to that awareness and find your way back to the center of your authentic whole life. Confusion is not the problem – it’s just a messenger. Stop yourself and listen closely to its message; it will help you find your focus, your insight, and your integrity once again.
Thank you, confusion! Your ingenuity is marvelous, even if it’s sometimes annoying.
In the next post: Welcoming the gifts of Anxiety